בעזרת ה' יתברך-יום ב' פ' בא, ראש חודש שבט, שנת תשע"ט
I beg you; believe that Hashem controls everything that happens. Through trusting Hashem, you will feel safer, happier, and your life will be easier in all aspects.
Emunah strengthens one mentally, and vice versa, one who lacks faith in Hashem; one who believes the world revolves around nature, and that things occur without a heavenly accounting; through spontaneity and luck – such a person will always be subjected to frightening thoughts, and baseless fears. Likewise, when one doesn’t believe in Hashem, he will constantly blame himself for everything that transpires; he will live with an endless guilt, and bring upon himself mental illnesses, לא עלינו ולא עליכם. The only antidote for one who is weak mentally, is ‘Emunah.’
The Rebbe constantly spoke about Emunah, he cites (Likutei Maharan chelek 2, siman 5) “The most important thing for a person is Emunah, and without Emunah, a person’s life is extremely challenging. There are many ailments that come from a lack of Emunah; which are mental and emotional Illnesses that people unfortunately suffer from.” The Rebbe continues ”When a person suffers from a mental illness, rachmana litzlon; medication or alternative methods wont heal him, and even tefilla, or zchus avos cannot help him; his only way to escape from his inner darkness is through Emunah”.
Therefore, strengthen your faith in Hashem; look at the miracles Hashem granted you; a dear husband, and a beautiful child. Thank and praise Hashem, and daven to be able to feel pleasure in your life. I’m writing a tefilla for you to say every day; I guarantee, if you say this tefilla at least once a day, you will recover very soon. Say this tefilla as many times as you need to; once, twice, every time you feel worrying thoughts blurring your mind; when you feel the negativity closing in, take this tefilla and say it aloud, and you will feel things change for the better.
“Hashem, thank you for all the wonders and blessings you gave me; thank you for my dear husband, and beautiful child.
Dear father, help me be happy, and be able to feel pleasure in my life. I’m in a pit of despair; I only see darkness, and have such terrifying thoughts which dominate my life.
I beg you sweet father, help me believe everything that happens to me, is only from you. I want to live with Emunah, and feel your presence in everything I do. Hashem, see my pain, how my negative thoughts are destroying my life. I only see my flaws, and live with such a guilt over everything that occurs. This causes me to hate my own self, and I feel that I cannot endure the pain any longer.
Holy father, have pity on me! Help me think positively, and stop blaming myself for everything; help me remember everything comes only from you.
Hashem, see my tears, and feel my pain; אתה חונן לאדם דעת – you give wisdom to all; ומלמד לאנוש בינה – and you grant understanding; thus, I beg you dear father, חננו מאתך חכמה בינה ודעת, grant me the שכל to stop torturing myself with unwanted thoughts.
Hashem, I feel as if my life has no value like this; I have such conflicted thoughts; all I want is to escape. I know though, I have no where to run, only to you Hashem.
Therefore, I beg you Hashem, help me; in the merit of the tzadikim who sanctified your holy name; in the merit of our holy Avos, Avraham, Yitzchok, and Yaakov; in the merit of our holy Imahos, Sarah, Rivkah, Rachel, and Leah; in the merit of the holy Rebbe, R’ Nachman M’Breslev; in the merit of R’Nosson M’Breslev, and in the merit of Maharosh z”l, amen.
By saying this tefilla every day, you will merit a refuah shleima very soon.