בעזרת ה' יתברך-ג' פרשת שמות, י"ז טבת, שנת תשעט
Forgive me for not having time this morning to send you a letter; I’m very busy now with multiple things. Yesterday night there was a chasunah here in yeshiva, the chosson is a Talmud from our yeshiva ‘Tiferes Hatorah’ and the kallah is a student from our school ‘Bais Faiga’. In the morning I had a bris in Boro Park for h’avriechs ………. twins. Now that I have a few minutes, I will write a few lines.
A yid once came to R’ Nosson z”l regarding another yid, part of אנשי שלומינו who was extremely poor. He remarked “what a רחמנות - a pity on him, he is destitute without a penny to his name”. R’ Nosson answered (in a tone of surprise) “he is a רחמנות?”, “Moshe Chinke is a רחמנות!” (Moshe Chinke was one of the Rebbes talmidim, who later became one of R’ Nossons biggest opponents.) He continued “true this specific person has no money and therefore seems like an object of pity, and Moshe Chinke is wealthy and powerful, but in reality he is the real רחמנות, because who knows what will await him after 120 when he will be held accountable for his deeds…..”
To you dear brother I say the same, you look at yourself and think ‘what a pity on me, I have nothing…’ you envy so and so who on the outside looks like they are leading a fine life. Thus, I want to ask you (in a tone of surprise) “you consider yourself a רחמנות? You are not a רחמנות, you live with Emunah! You believe in Hashem! Even when you fall down, it hurts, and presses on your conscience, so why wallow in self-pity? Stop envying another, and instead thank Hashem for all the blessings in your life!
I still have a lot more to write on this topic, but since my time is very limited, I’ll end here. What gives me the strength to continue, is to hear that you are connected to the Torah, and you learn some mishnayos and gemara every day; זה חלקי מכל עמלי.